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I'm Kathleen, occasionally Kat, call me what you will. I'm a 20-something diabetic nerd-girl and damn proud of it.
I share my lovely residence with two cats, a rat lady, and a dog who is too big for her own good.
Current Obsessions: MCU, Captain America: The Winter Soldier, Stucky shipping, and that beautiful sad trash hobo prince that is Sebastian Stan.

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that’s what makes it an army. not a bunch of guys running around and shooting guns.



summer lovin
had me a blast
summer lovin
dick in my ass




So far, Steven’s powers have been:
A bright pink shield
A bright pink bubble
Magical healing saliva

And he is always STOPPING fights, usually peacefully and in nonviolent ways, trying to get both sides to get along and understand each other. Suffice it to say, he is not your typical superhero. In fact, he’s really not that super yet. He’s still on training wheels. And yet he often manages to end conflicts WITHOUT powers or weapons that destroy others.

And I love what this show is doing with him and all of his friends. Especially in a pop culture that is overpopulated these days with “save the world” shenanigans and focusing on powers and shock value instead of being “strong in the real way.”

I’m already proud of this little guy and the small steps he’s made. His journey isn’t one of leaps and bounds but baby steps, like real people.

This week’s wonderful two-parter has set up what the show has been foreshadowing for some while: that Steven, being half Human and half Gem, will forge a path that unites both kinds of beings — a path paved by acts of non-violence, understanding, and compassion. Where his merit and strength as a hero isn’t defined by his powers (which, BTW, completely fly in the face of typical superhero and gender role BS), but instead by HIS CHOICES.

And THAT is the kind of hero story we need these days, IMO.

I’m sick of watching characters save the world from evil.

I want to see characters saving themselves, saving each other — personal journeys about making choices and resolving conflicts, not just slapping “evil” around. Even SU’s plot twists don;t feel cheap. They feel rewarding, because they are always foreshadowed and always recontextualize earlier events that maybe didn’t make sense. They feel planned, thought out, CARED for, just like the characters who populate the world.

Steven’s story, especially given the moral ambiguities brought to the table recently, really has a lot of potential to do these things — to be a personal journey more than typical “destroy evil” stuff — and in many ways, it has already.

I believe in Steven.



source: robot-hugs

has anyone posted this yet? I love it! 

This was perfect


Me: mom, dad, this is my girlfriend Eve

Mom: the fuck I thought you had a boyfriend

Dad: the Bible said Adam and Eve, not gay is okay

Me: wait for my surprise

Mom: another one

Dad: what surprise

*a guy walks in*

Me: this is my boyfriend Adam


Me: do you get it, Adam and Eve hahaha, Adam and Eve

Parents: no

Me: but the Bible said


Happy (very super early) Halloween (?)

Originally I wanted to have everyone dressed up like Bucky, including Bucky. But then that seemed pretty depressing so I was going to have Bucky dressed as Captain America but that was depressing in a different way, so I ended up with Bucky-Halloween-is-stupid-Barnes. There’s just no winning with this fandom. Except for Black Widow - who wins at everything.

(p.s. friendly reminder that I do take commissions, and I have a society6 shop over here)



friendly reminder that the reason peter quill never opened the gift from his mother and carried it with him all those years was because when she gave it to him she told him not to open it until after she was gone and he could not bring himself to open it because that would mean admitting that she was really dead

you shut your mouth

❝ could be gayer ❞

- a review (via hauntter)





I bought my friend an elephant for their room.

They said “Thank you.”

I said “Don’t mention it.”

Is there a joke here that 15 thousand people get but I don’t?


Nobody explain this








No, but you don’t understand why I liked Iron Man 3 so much.

In all the other Avengers movies, we see characters going through pain and trauma and heartache.  We see Steve lose practically his whole world and still carry on.  We watch Bruce struggle with trying to figure out just how the Hulk fits into his life and his psyche; it is implied that he deals with depression and tries to end his life.  We hear Clint and Natasha and their angst about the “red in their ledgers”, the things they have done, and we watch as Thor essentially comes of age and deals with the pain of having his brother fall down deeper and deeper.  We KNOW the pain and the issues and the upset are there.

But Iron Man 3 is the first time we actually get to witness—REALLY witness—the aftermath of heroics.

In the first part of the movie we see Tony Stark dealing with real, honest-to-god PTSD.  He has panic attacks, he can’t sleep, he gets reckless and has a harder time taking care of himself, he obsessively spends hours working on suits so he can protect Pepper—even though in doing so he is unintentionally threatening their relationship. Rarely has such a thorough job been done in showing that all the flash-bang-let’s-save-the-world action would, in real life, have some serious psychological consequences.

Then, as the film progresses, we see him laid low.  REALLY low—we see him get taken apart piece by piece.  He loses his home, he loses contact with the people he cares about, he loses his suit—which means, in the context of the past few films, that he is in some ways dead.  “He is Iron Man”, after all, isn’t he?  The public sees him as one with the suit, and in a sense, so does he—a good deal of his self esteem, his sense of being able to defend people, is locked up in what he can do in the suit.  And now he’s stranded in the middle of nowhere—he can’t fly, he can’t fight much, he’s still suffering from PTSD, he’s being actively hunted by the few people who don’t think he’s dead.  All of his real ability is locked up in his brain, a place not everyone would think to look.  We see him almost completely broken down.

And then we watch him build himself back up again, but with one major difference: he does it without the suit.

In most of the second half of the film, in almost all of his major victories, Tony is not in the suit.  He breaks into Killian’s mansion essentially with odds and ends he’s cobbled together.  He saves the passengers from Air Force One with a suit he’s remotely controlling.  He wins the final battle with a whole bunch of suits that he is not in at all.  Rhodes saves the president, and Pepper kills the villain.  Not Tony.  And at the end of the day he blows up all the suits and tosses his mini arc reactor into the ocean.

Iron Man 3 is brilliant and underrated precisely because it lets the hero be a real man—a man, not a man in a suit.  A person who can still work wonders even when he’s at his very lowest, when he’s stranded and battling mental illness.  Someone who can’t operate completely alone, who lets other people have some victories as well—heck, who needs his friends and teammates to win.  And as he says at the end of the movie, while he may not always wear a suit, he will always be Iron Man. 

And personally, I think that is an A-freaking-plus storyline to bring into this franchise.


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I liked this part of IM3. I did not like the villain or his plot, and a lot of the stuff didn’t make sense, but I did love Tony’s character arc. And Pepper’s. And Rhodey.

As with Thor, I loved the characters more than the movie.

I actually really adore what they did with the Mandarin - because he’s a caricature, he’s everything Americans fear about terrorism, created by the corporate end of the military-industrial complex, and his entire character is a sham.  

And what they did was literally the only way they could have handled that character and that plot that could work.

Because the Mandarin isn’t the villain - the Mandarin is a boogeyman, he’s a falsehood created and directed by the people who want America/ns to fear what they think Islam is.  The villain is the guy propping that up, the guy selling a lie about “safety”, but doesn’t actually give half a damn about anything other than lining his own pocket and polishing the image of his own self-serving genius.

It is literally the only way they could have used the Mandarin and have had it work.

I got my degree in homeland security - they do not teach about the 3 billion Muslims who are the guy standing in front of you at the grocery store, or the girl in the Hello Kitty hijab.  They don’t touch the 80-90-some-odd-percent of terrorism in the US being perpetuated by right-wing Christians, because that doesn’t fit with the story that creates contacts, jobs, and rocket launchers. They teach about the spectre, the big scary idea of what a terrorist is supposed to looklike - they teach about the Mandarin.

Everyone that story right up, and that: that is downright terrifying.

ALL OF THIS, just click on my iron man 3 tag if you want more of my thoughts on the Mandarin, which had actually made me not see the movie for fear that it would be more anti-asian/chinese propaganda. 

Additionally I adore the end so much. There is literal and metaphorical therapy going on, with Tony spilling his guts/fears/hopes to Bruce and Tony being willing to take the shards out of his heart.

I mean, if you look at the arc of Tony through the movies as a metaphor, he’d been essentially treating his wounds as a strength. There’s something in his heart that is, or has the potential of, killing him, but it’s the thing that gives him power. You can relate this to his intelligence, his assholeness, his weapons, his drinking, his obsessions, his past with his family. Things in his heart that are killing him, and that he identifies himself with, things that ‘built’ Iron Man.

But he took the shards out. Because he’s more than that, he’s literally/metaphorically/narratively more than his traumas.

And I found myself in tears at the credits because I didn’t think that a superhero movie was willing to go there.

PTSD, whether short-term or long-term, can be so hard to explain. IM3 is basically my go-to to illustrate it for people.

Fan fiction with fluff: Read in the corner of your bed with all the lights off at midnight while you giggle and blush
Fan fiction with smut: Read in very public places or with family with a perfectly straight face